You don’t deserve me. Not at all. You always tell me I matter to you but your words are far different from your actions. You gave me false hopes and broken promises. You made me felt like I am nothing. For all I know, I did everything for you. I even swallowed my own pride just to forgive and forget the things you’ve done wrong. I used to believe that in time, you’ll change and you’ll slowly realize my sacrifices but I was completely wrong. You failed me. You became worse. You gave me heartaches. All I ever asked is to make me feel important but I guess its too much to ask for. You never gave me that. But I wont deny that you made me happy. Yes, you did. Its just that its not enough. You never made efforts. I was the one who did. And you know what? I grew tired making efforts. That made me gave up on you. You never showed me my worth. Until now i’m still asking myself, am i unworthy? Its been quite a while, and sadly i’m still not healing and I guess its gonna be a long run before everything in me is aright again. This is hard. This is suffocating. This is just too hard to handle but don’t worry i’m still carrying on. Making ways to mend this. I cant blame you for all of this because at some point I had wrongs and shortcomings, too. I am not a perfect lover but at least I tried. I never thought its not enough. At least, I learned.